The TRUTH is, most people just do not have it in them to fully accept and/or appreciate the kinds of strait forward honesty that I will be sharing with anyone reading this blog! It is not that there is anything wrong with most people or that there is anything wrong with myself for that matter. No, it is just that society tells us that we should keep certain details to ourselves so that we can avoid the judgement and ridicule of others. As I am not ashamed or insecure about who I am in any way whatsoever and because there is nothing about my thoughts or ideas that is wrong or unjust, I do not need worry about what others might think when reading my blog. I am completely comfortable with who I am in every way and I realize that only interested individuals will bother reading my blog anyhow.

I find the process of writing this blog as though it is my own personal journal or diary to be incredibly wholesome and in many ways healing and strengthening!

Thank you for reading my blog and being a part of my absolutely honest and free, process of growing and learning. I love when people leave comments of any and all kinds after they read one of my blog posts. To leave a comment please first click on the title of the blog entry you would like to comment on.

Glenn Aum

(Glenn Douglas David Barton)

Glenn is currently a member of TripleEye! ~ formerly the guitar player for a band called Local Farmer

Please take a moment and sign this blog post that I have cleverly transformed into a www.TripleEyeMusic.com Guest Book!

MAKE SURE TO CHECK OUT TripleEye on www.TheIndie.biz

please remember to Promote, Rate and Share TripleEye from TripleEye’s profile page on www.TheIndie.biz

and of course you can also check out TripleEye at www.TripleEyeMusic.com

I have recently made a few important changes to TripleEye’s website { TripleEyeMusic.com } adding a couple PayPal buttons! Although TripleEye’s music is still available for free streaming and downloads, fans now have the option to pay for the music that they have enjoyed listening to if they should feel like doing so. I have made this change after many concerned fans actually complained about not being asked to pay for my music! So here you have it – if you like the music you can pay for it! – and thank you for your patronage of course.

I also decided to add the option to sponsor TripleEye for the more fortunate or financially blessed individual who might see what TripleEye is doing as something worth supporting. As an indie artist it can be very difficult to make ends meet financially and of course TripleEye could do many wonderful things with some extra cash being available. I would be happy to answer any questions that you might have before deciding to make such a donation.

This is the first time that TripleEye has asked for money from fans so this will be interesting to see how things progress from here! In the future we look forward to offering many other ‘pay for use’ or ‘pay for access’ features to the website including a members only access webpage and more!

Please check back to www.TripleEyeMusic.com often as new music is added on a regular basis, one song at a time! Free to listen and download ~ $1.00 each if you like what you hear!

Sometimes I think that I know too much, as if life would be easier if I just never asked myself why in the first place. Seemingly to me I have evolved mentally far beyond what most people can even imagine. ~{literally) I did this as I assumed that mental evolution was part of transcendence ~ as though I believed in such a thing! Of course I do, why would I be complaining now that I am here on my own. Yet to meet someone who has as solid a view of reality as I, although I am not stupid enough to think I am the only one ~ am I?

If the rest of humanity knew what I know we would be living much happier lives, every last human on the planet earth has it in them to just let go of their fear, come clean and see life for it’s true self! We must first share our selves openly and honestly with the world around us if we want the world around us to share itself with us in return. I wonder how many people have truly mastered honesty? Not enlightenment or anything like that just honesty, simple, non religious or spiritual in nature but this simple word describes a state of being true to yourself and being at one with everything around you.

Where are you good honest people? Let us get a bunch of us together and put a project together that would change the world in huge ways!

We are not lonely travelers ~ We are friends and family, neighbors and community! Yet we are all very segregated here in March 2012.

If humanity wanted peace we would have world peace! A substantial force keeps us in fear and war! If we could all just be honest so as to see ourselves through and out of this oppression soon before we kill mother earth!

GłęññÅüm creates music under the name TrïplęEÿę so that he might in some way help his fellow human travelers to find their way. Głęññ has come a long way and knows a path to self awakening. Some songs he wrote with out understanding what the lyrics meant until he learned a lesson hidden within the song. Głęññ hopes that in the same way his music could help open doors for people looking for a freedom from fear and a clarity of mind only achieved by the most honest and true of open minds. Let my music fill you up and leave you whole. Answers to questions you never thought to ask!

Look am I saying that TripleEye’s music has the key to life itself hidden gently within the lyrics of many songs? I sure as hell am! Listen, love, wake up, learn, grow, understand, listen… Be Honest!
Be True! Share yourself COMPLETELY with everything around you!

As tricky as honesty most certainly is, you will benefit from a nice neat lil download when you listen to my FreeMusic! Just open your mind and wake up a new person!

Okay okay okay! Alright already!

www.TripleEyeMusic.com

Listen to: b4 Gaia ~{ TrïplęEÿę }~

… The movie I watched last night called 3Magic Words told me that I am GOD!

I AM GOD!

I got myself locked up for saying that not so many years ago!

I AM GOD and so are you! We create this holographic reality from our infinite self on the other side of some field! I guess then that we must create this reality together or collectively!

I know you are real and that makes me somehow bound by your vision of, or idea of what reality is. Considering that most people are unaware of much goings on around them, I’d say then that much of my reality is created by the unconscious imaginations of others! Some would be conscious others but we’d be so lucky to have more than a few of them around.

Please let’s everyone wake up and start creating a reality worth living, loving and saving. Our mother earth is dying and it’s our fault this time as we destroy her!

Science and Spirituality finally agree on something and it’s that we actually create this reality! Believe it!

I take it another step and bring collective creation into the picture. Help me as we create this world worth living, so let’s save it!

We can start by lowering gas prices! Maybe we will run out faster!

I AM GOD

Ï ÅM GÔD

As my neighbors yell and scream and bang bang bang around the apartment upstairs! Thanks for nothin!

… Imagine we were all living a long time ago, a time when we lived in tribes or small communities. Let’s say one Friday, the local musician said that he doesn’t think he should have to work or pay into the community fund because he always plays the best music on Friday nights! In a small community of around 20-50 families this ‘musician’ wants others to work for his food because he plays nice tunes around the campfire!

This is why musicians always have to find work to provide for themselves and their family and it is also the reason why huge big name bands are living an undeserved lifestyle! That is unless the members of the group spend most of their time and money working for a worthwhile cause! Musicians who just ride the wave of success and money will have difficulty coming to terms with what they have done with their lives.

This is why I am giving away my music and not pursuing any traditional record deals. I don’t expect my music to pay for my way of life. This is just me sharing something I enjoy in life. My dedication to getting my music out to as many people as possible has developed over time as my songs began to have a message that I think many people could benefit from hearing. The lyrics that I often channel for my music have helped me with many wonderful awakening type things as I struggle to grow old and mature. If my music can do for others what it has done for me than I want everyone to here it. I just don’t expect to get paid anything.

I don’t even know why I am saying this here, like anyone reads this anyways!

Seems the irony in life goes something like this ~ People value what costs money and therefor are more likely to buy someone else’s album than listen to mine for free! Yeah, like some sick joke!

Sure I fantasize about money once and awhile, especially living in poverty, but I always come to my senses! This ideal that I have just shared with you is what I hold myself to and focus my energy on as much as I can!

So prove me wrong and go listen to my music for free instead of buying someone else’s music! I might still be poor but I will feel much better knowing that my music has touched someone else!

TrïplęEÿę’s MUSIC IS FREE and all music on www.TripleEyeMusic.com will continue to be FREE always and forever! TrïplęEÿę will continue to give away their music for free over the Internet as TrïplęEÿę earns the money it needs to continue creating it’s music in other ways! This will become headline news when TrïplęEÿę signs a multi million dollar contract with a corporation that, at this point in time, has no interest in this style of music business! This is how TrïplęEÿę and www.TripleEyeMusic.com is about to be a part of changing the music industry forever.

So by downloading, talking about and sharing TrïplęEÿę‘s music with everyone around you, not only are you and your friends enjoying great music for free but you are also doing your part in the war against corporate control over our cultures art forms.

By making our music available for free what we are doing is sharing this music with the world. Our fans will have many other ways of showing support like buying online memberships and attending live performance!

TrïplęEÿę will sell their time and energy while they give the music away for FREE!

Music is a part of our culture and that makes all music everyone’s property!

There will always be dedicated fans looking for another TrïplęEÿę show to spend money on! and of course fans who love TrïplęEÿę and the music they share will be more than happy to join the online members only access website with many awesome and intimate features and pay a yearly membership fee to do so. This way the music always remains free and TrïplęEÿę and their fans will not contribute to the huge bullshit fallacy that suggests how someone’s idea or musical creation can somehow be owned, managed and controlled. Sorry but this is art people. Freedom is beautiful and so is Free Music!

So what are you waiting for? Go to TripleEyeMusic dot com now and listen to, download to your playlist and share TrïplęEÿę‘s music with everyone you know! Be a part of something BIG!

My name is Glenn Aum and I am TrïplęEÿę and TrïplęEÿę is of course my musical project which will be a 3-5 piece band in the next few years or so. For now TripleEye is just myself, and I literally do everything there is to do with TrïplęEÿę except for the female backup vocals on some tracks (of course)! Yeah, that’s right, you got it, I play the guitar, bass, keys, drums, sing vocals, write the music and lyrics, record the music, produce the music and even master the final mp3 and CD’s!

I am going about this music thing all wrong in many people’s opinion but that’s really okay with me. I have tried many times in the last few years looking for others to work with but just can not find anyone that fits. I am sure that once I have this new round of DEMO songs ready for the Internet and after I have the extra money and big time producer behind me ready to take TripleEye all the way, that I will surely find the ideal BandMates for TrïplęEÿę at that time when I can afford to be more flexible with locations and accommodating with financial compensation. You see any musician at the level I need is looking to get paid money I don’t have to play music I have yet to record! … and yes this also explains why TrïplęEÿę is not performing any place or on tour any time soon {I can only pull off this ‘one man band’ thing when I am in my studio}! TripleEye needs your word of mouth, TrïplęEÿę needs some major recognition before we (or I sorry) can take this project where it wants to be, ON STAGE! A loud, 3-5 piece band on a world tour! Make no mistake folks, TrïplęEÿę IS going all the way!

So here I am back in the studio again after a very long 5 year break. I hurt myself at work and have been suffering intense pain and much physical disability for much of this time. I only just started to play my guitar again after 5 years of no action, a few mons ago, and I can still only play for a relatively short period of time {thank Propellerhead Reason6 for allowing me to cheat a lil and loop some of my instrument tracks;}! in addition to this amazing sense of appreciation for what I have, I am also blessed to be very happily married to Daniela Aum now 5 years, who has and continues to be such a wonderful giver of love and support for me and my music {now our music}. The time off, the appreciation, the love and support, plus all that I have matured since last time in the studio makes being in the studio this time around so much better. Not only are the songs new and evolved but my performance and ability has somehow improved greatly even without any practice! The new music is awesome and the new sound just as amazing! The lyrics are so much more positive or realistic and so much more enlightened than my last round in the studio! There is no doubt in my mind that TrïplęEÿę will be very successful and real soon even! With all the love, support and appreciation around there is no way this music could be anything but fabulous (can you tell by my vocabulary that I need a publicist also).

If I could just somehow overcome this incredibly poverty stricken state of independent musicianship that I find myself in, I might just be able to build myself the perfect website before we then start to get TrïplęEÿę’s music everywhere and their name everywhere! This takes money and only the Major Labels have the money to really push or launch a band in the way TrïplęEÿę needs. Unfortunately I don’t feel comfortable signing a major record deal. Nope, I gotta be a real pain in the ass and when I finally do get the attention of major labels, my feeling is that I will be looking to change much about how they view a modern recording contract. Let’s just say that my ideas are revolutionary as far as the music industries traditional views have been.

I need someone’s help! I must get help taking TrïplęEÿę to the next BIG step!

Check out some new music by TrïplęEÿę here ~ simply click on the link an listen to the song on your device:

She’s A FREAK! ~{ TrïplęEÿę }~

She’s A FREAK!

b4 Gaia ~{ TrïplęEÿę }~

b4 Gaia

Or go to www.TripleEyeMusic.com and listen to more music and find out more about this up and coming songwriter and performing artist Glenn Aum IS TrïplęEÿę!

What’s next? Who is going to help me with whatever comes next?

I doubt that I will be extradited to the US. for hosting this song that I wrote, produced and recorded about a woman who loves marijuana and being cozy, but what would ‘they’ (you know who I’m talking about) do if they heard this song and discovered that it’s available for free to anyone online?!

It is a great song as far as I am concerned and I have only heard good things (with a few WOWs) from others, although this song is not at all like anything I have done before. So if you are expecting the same ol’ TripleEye, think again!

This is only one song of many that I am currently working through diligently, however relaxed. They all sound great but in different ways – lots of variety this time round.

As usual, I eagerly await any and all comments, questions and of course criticism!

click here to listen to song (right click to download) – She’s A FREAK!

or Go here to listen ~ TripleEyeMusic.com
(look for Mp3 ~ She’s A FREAK)

& send comments here ~ Glenn@TripleEyeMusic.com

… an interesting thing is starting to take shape as we move along through the song writing, recording and music production process! I am guessing that this is just something that comes with growing older and maturing as both adults and artists. I find that I am often looking for new ways to do things I have always done a certain way. Not only are the new songs so much better and different than before but it seems that we are going to have a number of additional tracks designed for tripping out or just laying around zen style, lounging psychedelically. So in addition to evolved TripleEye sounding songs written with a message, we will also have some very trippy loungish ‘n groovy vibes for you to listen to as well.

New stuff should be online within a month or two…

Lyrics to TripleEye’s song TheWitch, written and performed by Glenn Aum (legal birth name: Glenn Barton, and stage name: WiZeN Aum)

TheWitch

Look at me I’m the mad hatter,
Look at me I’m the mad hatter,
and she’s a witch, look at her she’s a witch!
Look at me I am mad at her,
Look at me I am mad at her,
cuz she’s being a bitch, look at her she’s being a bitch!

You wicked little snitch,
you think you can play those games with me bitch,
Let’s turn it around, give it a little switch,
cuz it’s my turn bitch!

What did I do to you?
Cuz I don’t deserve this,
I don’t have to lift a finger
for what I could do to you!
Who in the hell do you think you are,
thinking you can just do, whatever you want to? Well I don’t think I like you!
Your fate is coming to get you,
and I don’t think it likes you
Yeah there’s no escaping destiny and what fate has in store for you!

Repeat with guitar solo in second verse

End!

Okay so I must clarify the meaning in this song because although I had actually intended on having the average listener struggle with the meaning of the lyrics I also did not intend for people to in any way imagine that I am, or could ever be, abusive or threatening in any way whatsoever! This song is actually about a woman who enacts revenge on their fiancé (myself) despite the fact that their fiancé had literally done nothing in anyway wrong, unjust or in violation of her rights and freedoms in any way. This woman was actually acting out revenge for what she imagined I could or would do to her in the future (believe it or not, crazy as it sounds it’s true)! So because I had done nothing to deserve the harsh and cruel treatment that I was forced to endure at her will, I knew that she was going to eventually face her own consequences to such actions and that I need not do a thing in retribution for this woman’s disgusting and cowardly acts of betrayal, selfish manipulation and various forms of abuse, not excluding torture (and yes indeed I only use literal descriptions of events and like the title of my blog suggests, I am always completely honest) although I will not go into detail here! That’s why in the lyrics to TheWitch I say “I don’t have to lift a finger…” because I know she will suffer the harsh consequences to her own actions on her own without any help from me whatsoever. My only act of what might be considered aggression would be writing this song in the first place! Aside from writing TheWitch, the only thing I did was never return to this woman’s arms ‘a changed man’ like she wanted from me! Instead I up and moved across the country to put my life back together where no one had been given a bad impression of me from some incredibly gifted Witch when it comes to gossip and manipulation. This young woman actually managed to convince more than half our friends that her delusions were infect true, all in attempts to cover up the fact that she is a worthless slut who was fucking around with multiple guys during a time when she was engaged to marry a man who was in every way an entirely honorable man with a level of integrity rarely found in young men these days. While I was busy recording an album in my studio she was out spreading vicious rumors about me. The main selling point for all of her lies must have been the cop and a few of his coworkers who decided to violently harass and threaten me. For the record I was never arrested or charged for anything illegal or anything at all. Not one day in jail or court. Just a seemingly endless stream of harassment that must have looked like the goodie two shoes RCMP protecting a victimized woman. You see because the police are not allowed to interfere with civil matters, many people believe that men are always the abuser and that a little under handed force from the police is not a problem. Yeah well what about when the man is the victim and the woman is not only fucking around with who knows how many guys (likely the cop also by the way he blindly followed this horribly rotten and deceitful bitch!) but she was systematically destroying my life with the help of a few pussy whipped men with shit for brains!

This is no lie! I did nothing wrong or in any way abusive throughout the entire relationship, even when all was going strait to hell! I may have responded to this woman’s abuse with an angry tone of voice but only out of my own pain and frustration. Never did I hurt or raise a hand to this woman (in fact I have never hurt or raised a hand to any woman in my life – you might ask around if you have any doubts) and never did I threaten or verbally abuse this woman. It’s just not my personality. I am just a real good guy! I think that this is probably what bothered this woman the most. I guess she thought that my long hair, tattoos and what she must have seen as a bad boy image, got her thinking she could get away with a bunch of nasty shit with me because she assumed I would be doing the same. So here she is talking all this bull shit about me to everyone we know, turning me into this monster, just so she could get away with serious infidelity and not have the entire town find out. Destroy my reputation so that no one would believe me. That’s why I wrote this song. And just to make it that much more obvious that I am not the man she claims, I did nothing at all, in retribution for all the horrible crimes this woman committed against me and my life. I wrote this song TheWitch and left town. On the bright side I did learn who my true friends are! Anyone who believed that shit obviously knows little about me and also cares little about reserving judgement for those individuals actually involved in certain matters!

… wow, that’s a lot of info… I leave it for now… Maybe add to it later

Okay so I am now able to play some guitar everyday if I am careful not to strain my shoulder. So I am looking for some new guitar students again! This would be an excellent opportunity for beginner to intermediate guitar players with zero to a few years experience. I am a very talented, seasoned and professional musician with 20 years of guitar playing experience. I have many years experience playing solo, electric and acoustic in most genres, as well as many years playing in a large and small band setting in rehearsal, live venues around various Canadian cities, and various studio experience in everything from small home studio to large Multi million$ studios in Toronto and Vancouver! Reasonable rates starting at $20 per lesson depending on experience and level of talent. I DO NOT TEACH THEORY as I do not believe it necessary for professional guitar playing in either a solo or group setting! I will help you learn to play by ear, improvise, write and create your own songs, chord progressions and lead solos. I can also help you learn your favorite songs if you like. You must be able to commute to Bloor & Islington subway station in Etobicoke for lessons in my home studio! Lessons WILL NOT drag on forever because as soon as we get you up to par we will conclude our time together (usually less than one year is all that’s needed to get you to where you can confidently teach yourself from then on)! Please contact me by email at Glenn@TripleEye

Almost finished setting up our updated studio and cleaning house in preparation for recording in our home studio! I am excited especially because my wife Daniela Aum is also very excited about working on some tracks together!

Here are some pics of how it looks as of today!…:

OhYeah! You could most certainly say that I am very much looking forward to playing around (maybe a lil work;) in my lil studio!

I wouldn’t even do business with a company or organization if I new that they were in any way involved with some kind of shady business. Legal loop wholes or not, if something seems dishonest or shady, it most likely is and something to avoid. It is only a matter of time before the shady behavior starts to effect you.

Now when we are talking about more personal matters instead of business, things are a little more sensitive! Anyone who truly wishes to enjoy good friendship with honest, loyal and respectful people, would serve themselves well to remember what I am about to say. As soon as you are aware of a friends involvement in anything that is in any way dishonest, you should take appropriate steps to either enlighten this friend or part ways immediately! If you can be dishonest it is only a matter of time before that behavior effects everyone in your life!

Honesty is key to love and friendship! Without trust we have nothing to stand on. Be honest and help your friends to do the same. Do this and your life is destined for better and better things in every aspect of living.

Simple to state but not so easy to implement with so many varying details in life!

Honesty is key to love and life!

I do not associate with dishonest people. I will treat them with respect but I have much better things to do in life then waste my time with hopeless individuals! When someone is changed or changing then that’s different as everyone is deserving of another chance at life, love and friendship!

Some of you may already know that I used to play guitar in a band called Local Farmer. This is a band that Jeff Hawkins started back in high school with myself and my brother Adam, friend Brad Johnson and Jeff’s cousin John Turnbull. We replaced Jeff with Kevin Cooper on vocals after high school when we moved out west to Maple Ridge British Columbia to pursue our music career with Local Farmer. We actually did fairly well opening for bands like Nickelback! We even signed ourselves a small independent record contract with TomCat records.

The band broke up shortly after recording our third album because, and get this one (LoL), Kevin Cooper and Brad Johnson ‘promised’ their parents that if the band didn’t “make it big” within two years that they would quit the band and go to school! Yeah, I should have known they never had it in them but what can ya do. I am still going after my music career some 15 years later!

Anyways, the real point of this blog is to share some aggravating news. So a few months ago I do a search on the we for Local Farmer, just to see what’s up. I had done this before and always found nothing but this time I decided to add the title of one of our albums. I searched — “Local Farmer” , “Seven Day Cruse” and guess what I found. The album that sold maybe 2000 copies before the record label went out of business is for sale on a couple online record stores. Now here is the real kicker! A couple of these websites are claiming to have sold a total of 50,000 copies of our album in Germany alone! How in the hell can they sell so many copies of an album that no longer exists. We did not produce that many CDs so what’s going on?

Thing is I don’t even want to get into making phone calls and whatnot. Even though I wrote most of the music, I will still get nothing from those sales so why waste my time?

What should I do?

I just hope that some of those 50,000 fans find their way to my website. I know it’s not a lot of fans but I sure could use them over here at www.TripleEyeMusic.com!

What a piss off!

FYI: I am currently in search of band members for TripleEye! We need a guitar, bass, drums, keys, aux perc and only the absolute best of the best musicians will be considered!

On the edge of time and space
We are at one with the universe
Creating all that we see
Imagining all that we might be
Turning what might be to what will
Any moment now becoming
What has already happened

and this is OUR

Reality

So I had quite the trip over NewYears and for the first time in many years, I wrote a new song (or it would be more accurate to say that I was given a new song as I am merely a channel which the song came through, kinda like a gift)! I was so inspired after this trip that I continued writing an earlier blog entry called “Call me Crazy!…” ~ if you haven read it or only read the first part, I recommend reading all of that one!

Last night I started working on a new track. It’s not the song I wrote just a few days ago, but one that I wrote back when Daniela and I first got together! The song is called “She’s a Freak!” and no only is it about Daniela, it’s also one of her favorites! This song is completely written and ready for production. I wanna start with an easier song as a way of getting back into the process of recording.

Okay so this is just a home studio that I am recording in and I have no band as of yet. So these songs will be produced with extremely limited means! I wish we had a large sum of money to do this right but what can ya do?

Ideally I want to have enough money to hire a big name producer like Trent or Bob Rock. (just a couple names I’m familiar with). I am open to working with any producer as long as they are exceptionally talented and into my music (of course). Then we have to hire engineers and a studio. Before we head into the studio I need to be rehearsing with a band that I would like to be able to pay weekly.

HOW DO I GET THIS MONEY?

ANYONE KNOW ANY WELL KNOWN PRODUCERS?

PLEASE SHARE MY WEBSITE WITH POSSIBLE INTERESTS! www.TripleEyeMusic.com

I have posted some of my older songs in .mp3 format on the main page of www.TripleEyeMusic.com

Check back often for new songs as the website is updated one song at a time!

That’s right! Glenn’s pudding a band together for 2012! Only the very best of musicians will be considered! So exciting!

… update: you have been considered…

… Another update: again still being considered… you will be informed Via, psychedelic interpretation! …

Something tells me that someone is or will be hesitating reaching out to me for some reason. I think the reason for this hesitation is because of who this person is! With higher profile individuals it can be difficult because if all does not go as planned, how do you make like nothing happened? (delusions of grander? – the best thing anyone can do for themselves is realize their true potential and never sell themselves short or settle for less!)

Just that I got to thinking that maybe the reason I have not found the group of musicians I’m looking for is because the universe (for lack of a bigger word) has something better in store.

I always thought I would make a nice replacement for Tool’s lead vocalist! How can this band with such amazing talent and obvious god like quality, settle for some loud mouth ‘ATHEIST’! Just look at the art work and listen to the music (without vocals) on the last album. The lead vocalist should be of high moral standing with an honest and purely divine voice to sing powerful, beautiful and enlightening lyrics to awaken the masses! I stand fearless and shameless under the brightest light naked and pure! Don’t get me wrong cuz I always loved Tool with James Keenan but I just can’t listen to those albums anymore! It’s time for the other side of the coin!

James made his dark and scary point very well indeed. Now it’s time for someone to shine a flawless light of warmth and infinite wisdom!

Not sure why I think it is Tool that is the band I should be creating music with but seems real enough. Whatever it is, what’s coming will fit with the above sanario in one way or another. Metaphorically speaking perhaps, although I am really feeling Danny and Adams energy around me as I write this.

You know what? Wouldn’t it be so perfect if I could be sought out by the guys from Tool and that this could all happen without me leaving the house, making any phone calls or sending any emails? Imagine the back story and how serendipitydoda that would be to have a spiritual kind of connection like synchronicity bring us together! Adam or Danny reading this blog and deciding to email me to invite me to jam out some tunes. Would certainly help the image and what I have to say!

James has been struggling to keep up with what the audience wants for many years now. His lyrics are full of fallacies and hypocrisies being forced on the listener with blind arrogance! I know that a group like this should respect creative freedoms and give each other room to be themselves. That being said, something must be done when a lead vocalists’ philosophy and preaching message contradict the spiritual message and movement represented by the bands image!

Yeah, it’s me! I’m hear and I’m ready! I have ALL the KEYS to ALL the DOORS and know how to lay them out across a few albums designed for mass awakening!

Call me crazy, sure wouldn’t be the first!

Okay, so the above scenario being incredibly unlikely to say the least as not only do I have absolutely no connection to anyone even close to the band but I don’t even have any recent vocal performances to spark their interest even in the remote chance they even find my totally awesome blog! Oh well, sometimes it is good to let thoughts flow out onto the world wide web. What do I have to loose anyhow? I’m just letting my imagination get away with me while I share my thoughts with whoever maybe interested, so if anybody’s got a problem with that well, be gone with ya.

In a way one can gather from the above little rant of mine, the kinds of things or musical projects that I might be interested in. I mean tool is definitely only one type of music or one kind of music that I would be interested in as of this point in my life I am really open to many genres.

Above I describe how I see the vocals for a bands like tool being represented and in a way this offers a pretty good idea of the kind of message and image that I would like to be a part of. As long as I can actively spread a message designed to help others achieve a sort of inner peace and wisdom (some call this enlightenment) while I am creating amazing music with incredibly talented artists and musicians who also share an inner standard of high moral integrity, I will be happy fulfilling my purpose in life. I don’t want to preach some sort of dogma or spiritual cult kinda beliefs, no, of course not. I just wanna play killer music that grabs the listeners attention, while the groove makes em wanna dance, I can share some insight to a better way of living. As a band, as a group of artists and with our fans in the audience, we can explore various ways that we might come together as fellow human beings and explore new and better ways of sharing this reality together.

Right now I am looking for likeminded musicians to put this group together and once we have our group, only then will we decide on what flavor to play in or what genre to write in, after we jam a few times, play around with numerous ideas, find our groove, make it fit in with today’s most popular musical tastes and styles so we can reach out to as many people as possible (although most likely our natural sound and style will be exactly what folks wanna hear anyhoo) and only then will we have any sorta idea what our sound will be.

This group will form around an ideal image and message instead of the traditional method of forming a group around a specific genre. This way our music will not be so bound by expectations of style and sound. Free to let the music morph and change to better reflect our various moods and feelings within the message and themes of each song!…

Yeah, Tool is probably way too caught up in their own totally amazing projects of Tool and who am I to think they would be open for what we have going for us and what we are about to create!

… update:

okay so here’s what I’m thinking as of today (things may change with input from other members as they join in):

• I want Adam and Danny from the band Tool to come join TripleEye when they take the next break from TOOL (one of the best bands in the world ~ James being an amazing artist and vocalist just not for this project)!

• Something tells me that Adam has or will be reading this blog of mine and will know what to do when he realizes who I am. Something about how they have been waiting for a Wizard and a Warlock for another project. Well then ~ what you waiting for?

• I am on a disability pension so I dont have the money or resources to come out and meet you guys so I am expecting that you will be in contact with me soon to arrange a meeting and/or pick up. (“Go to Toronto Pearson airport at bla bla time and wait at the bla bla bar for so and so…” is what should take place.)

• I think I am supposed to mention something about the power and the Love of three being the key! A ring of 3 WiZarDz to unite the world in peace and harmony! (Adam: this should sound familiar to you!)

• My father found the most amazing wood carving of Ganesha that he purchased from Shanti Baba for my wife on CHRISTmass. The shop keeper says that this is very special one of a kind!

• as we enter the year of the Dragon once more
• 3 powerful Wizards and Warlocks all in their 35th year born year of the Dragon
• us 3 unite under the stars one night as forces align in preparation
• for entry the Age of AQUARIUS
• the TIME has come…

~ WE ARE ALMOST THERE! ~

~ can you feel it? as our universe conspires to bring us together! ~

IMPORTANT: Myself being without money and VERY MUCH against accepting record industry money as our project is destined to be free of traditional contracts. We need to make contact with you as we will need your connections and finances to get this ball of light Rollin! Oh yeah, which reminds me ~ I can set you free of your obligations to the record companies! My formula is flawless and despite the industries initial dislike of such an agreement, this plan/formula is so good that EVERYONE will benefit! This is the answer the record industry has been waiting for! This will turn the un~regulate~able Internet into the music industries saving grace! TRUST ME! BUT ~ I or WE need your help.

• Adam, you might wanna check out the art and pictures section of www.TripleEyeMusic.com as I am told you will notice a few things of interest. The painting of the Wizard spinning water is a painting called ‘Spell Work’ and I painted that 13 years ago, before I knew anything about any of this. I didn’t even know what I had painted up until a trip I had around 7 years ago! Also check out Daniela’s websites www.ThinkingBliss.com and our joined site www.DuendeArtProductions.com ~ I hope to have my buddy Derris’s art work posted on that site shortly, Derris is also someone to check out his artistry! Alex Grey is also likely to recognize the connection (already made in the ethereal) about to be made here on the EarthPlane! (you know I’m not insane!)

• We have a cat named Georgio and another named Demeter, two very magical ferrets named SteWarT and CloE!

• I am about to start recording and producing a song that I was given/downloaded the morning of Jan01/2012! This is a sure success ~ NO DOUBT ABOUT IT! Just that the thing is that something feels kinda urgent, as if we should not wait for you to hear this new song. Listen to TheWitch (song I wrote around 7 years ago) as this song should be enough to show you potential. Click here to listen to TheWitch.Mp3! (Numerous other songs that I have created can be found on my website – www.TripleEyeMusic.com) Obviously my vocals are WAY better as I am much more evolved as an artist, vocalist and wizard at this point! From what I have been told you will read this and other writings of mine. (various names used ~ Glenn Barton, Glenn Aum, WiZeN Aum, 3xi, TripleEye). Apparently what I have online now will be enough for you to feel comfortable and confident in your decision to contact me. email me @ WiZeN@TripleEyeMusic.com under a pseudo name and I will respond with my ‘CELL#’ for you to make contact!

• I’m not sure exactly why but time is of the essence! The sooner we get recording together the better!

• SeVeN years ago I had an out of body experience that took me over to your body, where I then proceeded to write a lengthy and slightly scattered short story. Something about you helping me marry 2 women by delivering a ring bought by my grandmother to both women. I am thinking that perhaps you did actually write something that didn’t really seem like your own style of writing. If so, try to match with my style! Regardless of the existence of an actually story, this here writing will seem very familiar to you. I am waiting for you to make contact. I could come knocking but this works much better when you reach out it will demonstrate some of what we are capable of with this project!

• Say high to the band for me! I have been a fan, with you since ‘Sober!’ Just one of my all time favorite groups! I love what you all have done for the world and such a vital movement. I look forward to meeting you in person.

Imagine a group of musicians, you know like your traditional guitar, bass, drums, keys and vocals, creating a new band but instead of choosing what genre of music they will play, first they decide what sort of ideals the band should stand for as they select various members of the group based on skill level and personal philosophy with no interest in what genre the individual has traditionally played. See most bands are formed around an interest in a specific style of music and built up from that but what if that’s why most groups fail? Over the next month or two, I will be outlining the kinds of I will be looking for in fellow musicians to fit this bill. I will likely just write up a bunch of ideas like this in blog form and link them to a page on the website.

I really want to make it clear how important it is that all members of this group are of like minds as things progress it will become much more important that we all get along well! This is why I would like to ask that any interested musician please take the time to read through this here blog. Please take your time and pay close attention, especially when you find yourself taking issue with something I say. I have purposefully taken the time to elaborate on various concepts and ideas that I know will annoy the frack out of certain individuals. I do this to scare unwanted people away. Let’s not waste our time okay.

It is true that I have been out of any music scene for many years now and even longer now that I have been away from Toronto’s scene. In fact, as of this moment, I can’t even be sure there is a music scene in Toronto! At least not a scene that I would traditionally hope to find, you know with a bunch of competing bands or groups of musicians who actually play music with their hands, using guitars and drums and stuff. Don’t get me wrong as I love digital music of all kinds. Just that I think I would feel more comfortable standing on stage and singing with a band of musicians behind me rather than a guy spinning tracks!

I have changed some in the last few years and I am no longer looking for a specific kind or genre of music and musicians. I have certain needs that I must fill and I have a huge profound appreciation for all kinds of music, providing it’s good music. I had an old buddy argue with me about my perceived sloppiness of his drummer and he suggested that drumming, like all music, is relative or something. Going on to argue that drums can’t be sloppy, bad or wrong because it’s all a matter of opinion and taste. Ummm yeah okay weird ‘n strange lil’ fella, whatever helps you sleep at night I guess.. LoL! That being said, I will only be interested in working and playing with musicians who can play with exceptional ease! In other words I am looking for professional musicians. I don’t require that you be a working professional at this time as long as you can play at the professional level. I am the best of the best looking for the best of the best! No big egos please. Of course music is often a matter of taste and flavor ~ I would never say I am ‘the best’ at anything. Just saying that there are many truly amazing and talented musicians in an around the Toronto area. I am one of them and I am looking for others to work and play with!

I can join existing band or we can start a new one. Starting a new band is preferred but I will consider alternatives.

Please let me know if you or anyone you know might be interested. You also might wanna read read another blog entry a few posts above this one.

Great musicians playing amazing music in a style and genre that’s popular, in a way that wakes people up while installing and reminding listeners of the greatness to be had while walking a path of high moral and ethical fibre! A band to change the world and make it a better place ~ one song at a time! Except that this band will literally be so fucking awesome that it won’t matter to anyone that we are all about having integrity with good morals and making the world a better place and how people used to think this goodie goodie stuff was somehow uncool or cliche. I am an anti-capitalist, I am very much against prohibition, I got tattoos, I vote for ‘None of the above!’ on my election ballot and I believe that Religion is wrong and in most cases evil so if that’s not enough controversy to offset wanting to help people live better lives then something is wrong! … Oh and if your interested in trying out, please at least agree with me on the last few points I made here so you don’t waste anyone’s time!

Thanx,

Contact:

glenn@tripleeyemusic.com

Just like I talked about in an earlier blog entry, there is absolutely no doubt in my mind that life is about to turn around for our little family here. Life always balances out the good with the bad and just as it is true that there will be suffering in everyones life, there will also be much good fortune and wealth of some sort in everyones life.

Usually when your financial situation sucks your marriage will be good or the other way around, your marriage sucks but your both doing well financially. So naturally when two people’s lives are about as messed up and as horribly rotten as mine and my wife’s are, it’s time to start expecting a whole lot of GOODS! at least as far as our marriage goes we are happy knowing how this is just a time of transition, exploration and growth. We both love each other very much and we have so much in common it’s almost scary. Just that our personality types seem to be needing us to work some shit out first. I know we both feel the same way and see ourselves together for the rest of our lives, we just have to get through this sticky ‘n shitty part first. Daniela is recovering from a serious concussion last year, I have developed Lupus and I’m on disability, obviously our financial situation sucks, I haven’t played music in years, etc. etc.

So as far as I’m concerned, our lives are most certainly scheduled for a shifting change as fortunes are adjusted and balance is achieved! This time however balance would obviously require an oversized amount of GOOD ol’ fortune for a nice few years even just to balance out the years of holy freakin hell o’ bullshit we have suffered up until now! You see, what I figure is that because I have certainly not done anything to warrant such il fate, I can only imagine such il fate be part of a system of checks and balances. This is very good news and likely to come in more than one form due to the combined amount of suffering experienced over the last 7 years now. According to my incredibly intuitive instincts of profound insight and ability, I have been able to calculate how long this lull, low or slump should be and when it would end.

I am pleased to inform everyone that I am most certainly not crazy, insane or mentally il and that this is all based on much careful observation, combined with an immaculate memory, careful reason, a lil’ objectivity, a simple process of ruling shit out d’ equation, a few crossed fingers and a ‘fair’ helping of optimism and positive speculation when the facts where not present.

The seven year lull has run it’s course and with 11:11 now behind us, I can already feel things starting to shift! I have no doubt that the year 2012 will be, at least for the Aum Family it will be, full of many positive happenings as an obvious pattern of Good Fortune starts to present itself!

Strange how my mind works sometimes. I’m not sure if this was all part of some curse (most likely) or if it was just part of my (& our) personal and spiritual evolution, or perhaps this is just a dream that we are about to wake up from.

Yeah, I’m very happy to report that I have somehow managed to find my way out through to the end of that seven year curse. 11:11 has passed and as all positivity and good fortune comes back to me it’s not something I yet feel as the dank ‘n dark lingers a bit. Just like waking from a nap that went longer then hoped, I should regain my usual positively chipper self any day now. Oh hell, I don’t wanna rush it none, so how ’bout we just wait and see what happens in the new year!

Okay, so not really counting on my Lupus to go away and doubtful my pain should ease up any time soon. This can only mean that our Good Fortune, when received is gonna come in the forms of: Love & Positive Relationships, Finances & Successful Careers, Good Friends & Positive Social Scene, etc,… I am even looking at starting and/or joining a new band/musicGroup as lead vocalist and song writer in the very near future (anyone know about a group of extremely talented musicians, high moral fiber an Toronto located ‘mature adults’ ?)… I’m not going to expect full recovery from pain allowing me to play music again — if it happens it happens, wonderful but I’m okay regardless! One thing I think would be amazing and just a wonderful way to get off to a really GOOD start would be to win the LOTTERY! oh yeah that’s right! Let us win the Lottery and use all those millions of dollars to express and live out Daniela’s and mine’s newly acquired GOOD LUCK!

We have most definitely earned a Lottery winning and of course all the good fortune, love, warmth and closeness we so deserve!

Most people try to dispel curses. I like my way better. I let them have their curse knowing full well what would happen when my natural good fortune (or Karma) returned to it’s natural state! That’s right, now that the curse is over, my energy must find ways to balance my fortune vs suffering checkbook!

I can feel it. Although I most certainly, still at this point, feel horribly rotten, low energy and in so much pain, I can also feel a change coming, it’s in the wind. I don’t just feel it coming, I can see it, hear it, smell it and know it’s coming. Now that I have written this blog I can have bragging rights when the “I told you so” moments start coming around.

(-: Good bye 11:11 and hello 2012

(-: They curse to cause harm but we use the experience to build strength and wisdom ~ now it’s time to cash in, after all we have been through, our good fortune will never be taken for granted ~ with our acquired wisdom gained from years in hell, a profound appreciation we NOW have for what most take for granted!

(-: All we ask for is from what we deserve ~ good fortune for us but only as long as our fortune does not take away from what others deserve ~ to be rich while others suffer is not ever something wanted within this Aum Family!

There sure is a lot of worried friends and family members across Canada and the US thinking that someone they know and care about might be addicted to some drug, substance or behavior. The term addiction has been around for a very long time and there have been many studies conducted as science attempts to understand a term that suggests human will power can be lost or taken from us. Every source defining addiction states that being addicted is to have lost control over the use of a substance or the means to acquire a substance. Meaning, in other words, when an individual becomes addicted to a substance they are said to have lost any free will, at least as far as using said substance. Okay sure but here are some solid facts to help you understand part of the problem. There has never been any study or evidence demonstrating that any human being can in fact loose free will or loose in any way the power to choose for themselves. There have been studies suggesting that drug abuse may effect an individuals sense of judgement but there is nothing to suggest that we as human beings could ever become incapable of making our own decisions. Basically what this means is that some drugs are capable of making people want to use more without wanting to take any responsibility for that choice! Convincing a drug abuser that it’s the drugs fault and not their own is certainly not the best way to have the drug abuser choose to stop using said drug! Addiction does not exist! Drug abuse and drug dependance are very real but very different issues.

Addiction is a term used by therapists and charlatans looking to make huge amounts of money committing careless and irresponsible people into rehab where they will convince them that they will always be addicted. As far as I am concerned these so called therapists should all go to jail! Shame on you all!

Take responsibility for your actions!

Unfortunately, anyone who becomes convinced that they are in fact addicted could very well have just lost the only thing that would have allowed them the ability to actually stop doing or using whatever it is they are now apparently addicted to! If to be addicted means to be without control over a continued behavior, then being addicted means that you are no longer in control, the behavior or substance is. The important thing to remember here is that there is absolutely no scientific evidence to support the idea that a human being can ever loose free will or in this case become addicted. Therefore when someone has convinced another human being that they are addicted all they have really done is convince them to give in to a pattern of abuse because it’s not like they are in control anyways.

The term addiction has been around for so long with so much money and government time invested in the idea that addiction even exists, that my argument, as simple an strait forward as it is, seems completely outrageous to most people.

The only way anyone can change any behavior is to take control of the situation and use their own free will to make informed and wise decisions. Admitting that you are addicted will never ever help you discontinue using whatever you may or may not be using too much of! You are not addicted because no one can ever be addicted to anything! You always have a choice! Although sometimes it may be necessary to seek help when dealing with a drug’s physical dependance issues.

C’mon people(yes you) please, let us first consider others when we are weighing the impact our actions might have; and equally, might we consider ourselves first and foremost, in weighing the responsibility owing in any and all situations.

Yeah okay, right? Would I be so fortunate to be living my life in a world where I wasn’t one of the only ones who not only understood such ‘profound wisdom’ but actually considered such things common sense! This is obviously some sick kinda test of my simple faith! I spend most of my adult life pursuing an understanding of what life is truly about and how someone like myself should go about becoming the best human being I possibly can without blowing a gasket or spilling all the marbles out my head — and what do I get in return? Oh yeah, holy frackin hell on earth, you guessed it(didn’t you?), not only do I somehow develop Lupus with inflammation so painful that I can no longer play the guitar or any other musical instrument, but I also seem somehow blessed with a kind of ‘profound wisdom’ that is so foreign to most people that if I don’t come off as some dangerous enemy to be avoided or stifled at all costs, I’m accused of having your run of the mill insanity, which in a way is not entirely incorrect when you consider what NutJob Psychiatrists are thought to mean by that horrible term ‘sanity’ anyways — my simple paraphrased definition of sanity vs insanity, that I would refer to in my youth, was surprisingly accurate looking back now after studying psychology these last few years. My definition went kinda like this: — you are sane as long as your understanding and perception of reality and how to behave within that reality, is relatively the same as the majority of other individuals sharing that reality ~ you are insane if your understanding and perception of reality and how to behave within that reality is unusually different from the majority of other individuals sharing that reality — simple right!?! Oh, and it does not seem to matter any, whether or not your understanding or behavior is rational or logical, as long as most others agree with you anyways!(and this makes complete sense of course.) So just to frack with people’s heads a little, I like to go off on little tangents sometimes, like I just did, when I’m writing or talking. The best thing anyone can do when others are falsely accusing them of being insane is to act in ways that are obviously harmless and innocent although for one reason or another seem to be considered evidence of ‘insanity’ by (of course) a member of the insecure majority, who are themselves, far too afraid of any sort of change or anything that’s different, unusual or unique, that they just cannot handle reading through someone’s personal expression of a subject that is entirely rational and relative as well as being a fairly accurate use of the English language, simply because it might drag on a little or perhaps be somewhat repetitive and… UNUSUAL! — Okay, so, what was my original point or subject for discussion?… Ummm haha, LoL yeah I’m kidding, I remember what my fracking problem is (or should I say ‘issue’ instead of ‘problem’? What is ‘proper’?)!…

I don’t need to think to or remind myself to lookout for myself when I am out in public or a private social gathering because my instincts naturally kick in and take care. That is why it makes complete and absolute sense that I think to lookout for others and how they might be effected by what is happening or being said, especially when I am saying or doing something myself. As far as I am concerned this is not something that should have to be said, being what almost certainly falls in the ‘common sense’ category! It is very simple in fact — just be compassionate and sympathetic towards others, specifically in certain situations, as well as generally in an everyday kinda way. Why is this so difficult? I know that you selfish people have been enlightened and reminded of this simple kinda ‘rule to live by’ cuz people like me are usually very good at making sure that people like you are aware of how stupid(for lack of a dumber word) you are ‘being’ (your NOT actually stupid, you are BEING stupid) for thinking of yourself first even when it should obviously be your responsibility to consider how your actions effect others first.

Either I have incredibly strong and unwavering faith in divine purpose or I am so incredibly foolish! What if I am only going to continue this senseless suffering for as long as I choose to put others before myself in this life? Perhaps we are all supposed to just look out for ourselves and that’s why all the wealthy people in the world are horribly rotten and selfish assholes! Yeah right, what the FRACK! Knowing my misfortune in life, I can almost say that I wouldn’t be too surprised to realize that selfish greed is and always has been the answer! — Dammit all those Capitalists were right after all!

Of course I am so foolish that I actually believe that there are others out there like me. Sure there’s not many of us but they most certainly exist. Right? Don’t they? Don’t you exist? Hello? Umm, yes you, are you there? Are you one of us? (and did you know there is a comment section under this blog entry?) Do you try to be a good person throughout every day of your life despite the fact that you are surrounded by ignorant and selfish assholes who care way more about themselves and how everything they do might somehow benefit themselves? Are you one of us weirdos who always takes the time to put others first despite the fact that all you seem to get is continued suffering with an ongoing reminder of how no one appreciates your kindness and would much rather you just shut up about your incessant bickering and going on and on about how people like us, yeah us, like people of all kinds, all people of all shapes and sizes, individuals with all sorts of strangenesses and whatnot, folks from all walks of life, humans being people like other peoples ‘n stuff, kids who like life and kids who don’t, adults who act like kids and adults who should really listen to kids, people just like you and me, people like us, people are people so what does it mean?, people like us, going on and on about how people like us need to be good people, people like us, going on and on, talking about how people need to be better people, good people who care about and care for others, other people who care about other people, people like you and me, people like us, other people are just like us inside, so we might wanna treat other people like we wanna have other people treating us, treat others like you wanna be treated, “do unto others as you would have done unto yourself,” people like us ‘should’ be nice to us so we might be nice to them, you see?, be nice and thinking of others and how your existence is effecting them, cuz just as others effect us by how they live their lives we effect them by the way we live ourselves. People like us effecting other people like us, just as all actions have consequences, all consequences are manageable in the way they come about, all we have to do is take some time (few seconds or so) to think ahead about how OUR words and/or actions might effect others and we can very easily, by doing so, ensure that we only have the most positive life to live and share with others.

I am truly sorry to say this but I honestly believe that every city in North America and likely the world, is literally filled with hypocritical, two faced, dishonest, back stabbing, selfish, arrogant, foolish, petty and selfish assholes! It is for this reason that I am convinced that if there is a heaven and hell, this is hell! There is really no other explanation. Why would I be, most certainly, punished for being a good person and becoming the best kind of human being I possibly can? You gonna tell me that shite happens just cuz it happens and suffering is just what life is? Suffering without purpose? Oh please, if so, could someone shoot me? Right in the middle of my forehead! But don’t just shoot me cuz you think I’m wrong, or right for that matter, cuz that’s just plain sick and twisted! Oh look at me, asking that if there is no justice in the world that somehow I receive some justice. If life is just suffering and for no purpose or reason, I want some divine intervention to pick up a gun and pull a trigger of sweet justice. A faithful fool right down to the very last thought. Just as I start to accept the horrible idea that life is without meaning and I have wasted my life being a selfless and kind, compassionate and loving, nice guy and friendly neighbor, when I should have been busy getting rich to satisfy my selfish greed, being a complete asshole all the while I screw with other people’s lives ‘n shite just cuz that’s how people get ahead in life, who’s got time to consider other people’s feelings and whatnot when nothing is of any rhyme, reason or purpose anyhoo? Yup, almost capable of seeing the light of no purpose! Right up until I remember that without rhyme, reason or purpose, there would be no making any sense of anything either so just the fact that I had it in my to somehow come up with this strangely provocative argument that actually makes a whole lot of sense, means that, life does in fact have a purpose, at least it does for me and I am sure that if your still reading this, then it does for you also, otherwise I would have pissed you off a long blogging time ago! So yeah, this is a hell, right here on earth and we are all living in it! Rich or poor don’t matter! I just don’t understand what the FRACK I did to deserve my life, which at this point is really starting to look like a seriously painful and annoying string of unwanted circumstances, that somehow seem specially designed for ultimate suffering!

Okay so I did get my point across fairly well I think as well as throwing in a few other points for flavor. I think I did pretty good, especially now that it is almost 3am and I am very tired after a long Christmas day. LoL Merry Christmas everyone! If this is my blog post for Christmas can you imagine what my NewYears post will be like? I do expect that if you have read this much of today’s blog entry that you will have the respect and dignity to leave a comment! (yes indeed, I just said that, I really did!) – just say something for bloggin sakes, C’mon people, please just do something new and different for once! Say something real, true and close to your heart, or just say something on point. All I ask is for a lil’ respect.

I am tired and I just imagined a figure of a well dressed man in suit walk up and leave some kind of envelope or note. As I wonder what the hell did I do to deserve bad news? … and why must I assume the news is bad?

Pretty sure we are winning the lottery in 2012! Maybe even next few weeks, just saying! Maybe it’s good news — in fact I know that it must be! (positive thinking in action folks;)

I’m thinking that I should start categorizing posts like this under rants and raves, just cuz I usually take longer to process each thought before writing then I did with this one where I just said whatever came to mind, just letting the thoughts roll.

Please people! Wake up please! I am just like you in so many ways! People like us are all around us! People are people so treat them all fair! People like us should be good people cuz selfish people cause us pain and suffering, when they don’t consider the consequences of their own actions! What’s wrong with you people? — Nothing? Okay then I know how easy it will be for you to understand the very first few lines of this blog post, and why I would like very much if you could do the world a favor and do NOT hold back when putting them selfish, no good, dishonest, two faced, back stabbers in their place! Please take some time to remind people of not just those first few lines but many other wise words as well! BE HONEST! Share your wisdom and put those lil’ frackers in their gosh darn dickiddy place, right now, yeah hear?!! If you are one of those lil’ disrespectin, double crossin, back ‘n forthin, SELFISH assholes, you might wanna ask yourself why your still reading this far in to this lil’ slice of heaven!

That’s all I’m sayin

… no, really, that’s all I’m saying…

for this blog post anyhooo… •;-)

It has been a few years now that I have been living with a disability and I am still struggling to truly appreciate and accept the extent to which my life has been impacted! When is it okay for someone who has never ending chronic pain to admit that it is time to let go of the life they once lived? It seems as though life has taken from me my ability to both work and play in the only ways I have ever known, in this lifetime anyways. It is only thanks to technology that I might even consider earning some sort of living but even this is a stretch. Sometimes we forget that it’s not just about finding a way to earn a living as we must also ensure that we have found a life worth living!

Just as a way to help put this into perspective for those of you who might be curious about such things. I will now make a list of things in my life that I can no longer do without causing myself extreme amounts of pain as what is presumed to be my tendons become inflamed gradually, although very quickly, as I use various parts of my body, in various ways. So these are activities that I would usually enjoy in life, at least they were things I enjoyed before I could no longer do without causing myself much more pain! I will list activities in a rough sorta priority of importance to me.

What it means to be disabled and suffering chronic pain!
These are the things I just CAN’T do anymore:

• play guitar, drums, bass and other musical instruments
• write, print, paint or draw with hands
• general labour (a means to work and earn a living)
• help out with chores around the house
• drive a car
• walk normal speed (I must walk very slowly)
• ski or snowboard
• hiking
• play video games
• use computer keyboard and mouse
• dance
• oh and I wouldn’t want to forget this one ~ whack-off! Oh yeah, that’s right, ya heard me alright. and as if that wasn’t bad enough, I’m sure you can imagine how limited my skills in the bedroom have become. Believe it or not I actually did have skills in this area.

Well that’s all I got for now although I might very well come up with something else to add to the list in the future. (or what’s left of it anyways)